Pieces That Wouldn’t Wash Away
There is a private ritual I return to when I am carrying a weighty burden that sits heavy on my heart. I begin by writing it out. Not carefully, not thoughtfully curated, but completely. Every emotion, every thought, every detail pours out in a raw and unfiltered release. It is messy. It is honest. I do not edit it or soften it. I simply get it out of me and onto the page. Then I sit with it. I do not avoid it or try to move past it too quickly. I let myself fully enter it. I look it in the eyes. I go down its throat. I allow myself to live, even if briefly, in the belly of it. For 15 to 20 minutes, I feel every ounce of it. The frustration, the weight, the discomfort. I let it move through my body in a way that is safe, but fully experienced.